Imperfections.-

tym ..

2009-07-11T14:43:00.002+08:00

passes so fast!
phoebes' graduated.. finally!
sadly its gonna be antoher what?
2yrs before she's coming back.
i miss her so much..
i think im gona cry when i actually see her.
hmm..
im not at wrk today.
was feeling sicklish ytd..
took FTP..
den i keep losing my concentration,
i gave up..
i cancelled the rest of the pract fer tad day ..
and home i went!!
sucks man..
anyways,
am heading to JB later this morning..
yups.. in the morning..
technically speakin its' tmr morning lah..
oh yea, did i complain abt my cooking today?
SUCKS! big time.
and its only instant noodles!
i cant believe it man..
this is wad happens when im not in the mood to cook..
even i cant stand my own cooking..
haiish.. today..
is cleaning day..
i finish sweeping, mopping, washing, wiping
most of the stuff alrdy..
and thats it..
im done.
so ppl..
croos ur fingers that i rmb to blog tmr!

ps, just two days fer weekends is seriously not enuf!

its bin months

2009-06-17T11:05:00.003+08:00

I KNOW!! Im a bz gerl ya know.
dun have tym to blogg.
anyway,its the sch holidays!
yay!!
went to penang this mth..
live the kampong life..
not tad bad actually..
very ... relaxing kinda life.
just laze around here and there.
went clubbing.. got drunk!!
and couldnt keep my mouth shut aft tad.
my boyfies' fren kept luffing at me.
and i learn to ride a bike!
a motorcycle i mean..
hahahas
and i rode it ard in circles like an idiot.
i had fun..
went shopping..
the best part was the beach right outside the mall.
no, not like vivocity..
tads a habour.
i mean a REAL beach.
with sand!! and coconut trees!
ahhh.. life.

now i feel as if everythings fallen into place.
i havent felt as peaceful for as long as i cn rmb.
i know i havent made the wrong choice in leaving u.
im happier.
and if God permits,
i hope u are too.

2009-03-24T14:24:00.002+08:00

nothing denies the fact that i still miss hym.
i'd still wonder if he's alryt.
if he's aslp or wide awake like i m in the dark of the nyt.
if he has moved on , or still thinks of me from time to time.
i'd used to think that if only two persons loved one another,
nothing can stop them from being together.
but no.
love is selfish.
it can only go on when one party loves the other more.
that was how it was.
until i got so tired.
i stopped trying.
no more tears
but im not happier.
no more heartache
but it aches all the same.
no more shoutings
im shouting alone.
my family and friends are here,
but alone i am.
just me alone.

2009-02-17T17:12:00.003+08:00

well heres the thing,
im freakishly B-O-R-E-D!
i cnt mit my bf cos ..
he's bz wid work..
and wid getting a new tattoo!!
argghhhhh!!!!!!!!
should have jus gone back to wrk..
den maybe i wun get so bored!
but cnt realy do anythin abt it.
its been almost 2 mths since i started wrk at jantzens.
its bin fun.
i got into quite a number of mess
but im still surviving..
haish..
valentines was nice.
i finally got flowers..
yea, 2 yrs wid raden and i din gt any !
wad a jerk!
hahas. jking.
i dun nid flowers to prove hw much he loves me.
i just nid hym to treat mi rite.
story of the yr..
sucks really.
not the hugo part,
but the raden part..
guess thats jus life..

2009-01-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

its CNY!! so fast!!
had lotsa fun at wrk today..
so long nv have that festive feeling..
den tdy, wid sooooooo many ppl at wrk..
fun man!!
serious.
anyway, my ' nan peng you' go back ipoh ..
sobbss..
miss hym alrdy.. hahah!!
lets c if he'll call. hehe
i finally have tym to blog!!
fer lyk forever i haven log on to anything,
that i even fergot my frenster pw lorh!
hw smart am i ??
amazing. i got to noe a new fren.
he is.... HUGO BOSS!! without the boss..
i mean, he in a way is the boss??
i miss watching csi.
so i think im gonna do it tonite.
and... i tink im gonna do it tmr too..
mayb go to the movies.?
we'll c.
i'll blog again..

loves, sammib'

what a week!

2009-01-09T23:59:00.004+08:00

ive bin at werk fer what?
2 weeks?
and i love it..
yea.. i got scoldings ..
plus stabs in the back frm irritating bitches
hu doesnt seems to have the guts to say things in my face.
stupid bitch!
anyway, i had lots of fun.
i cut my hair.
meet new pple.
mostly malaysians
and i think im lin love.
hahas..!
met my ferst gay and lesbian fren
and...
lots of fun.
seriously.

whoa hoo

2008-12-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

this festive season sucks uh.
every plans we have cocksup.
WTH!
anyway, today me and eddy headed to great world city .
i went for the interview,
and voila!
i actually got the job!
though i aint sure if i can get use to it,
i'll give it a go.
shud be fun.
well, work starts tomorrow.
so.. to bed i go!

2008-12-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

bin ages since i last blogged . yea, again.
well.. alot has changed. and.. im now..
i dunno, happier? i dun tink so.
just more free to do wad ever i want.
hahas.
anyway, went to watch twilight today.
its soo.. intensed.
edward collins is lyk, so hot!!
goodness.
well, i ve had fun this few days.
and i put up a christmas wish at the waterbay this evening.

thats it fer nw babes.
nytes!

chaos and complications.

2008-12-01T23:57:00.006+08:00

this chao this calamity.
bcoz of one stupid guy, everything turns upside down.
why cant ppl just not go disturb others?
got nothing better to do uh.
and oh yea. thanks to both zaza and huiyin,
i have a more understandable blog.
and did i mention that im hungry?
mom said to get a new fone fer me this wk.
but.. i dunno.
it'll probably be sum fone i wun like?
got this iphone. founded in a taxi.
and smart + irritatin owner.
its passcode enabled.
so i dunno what to do with it.
i mean, if i sent it to apple, den its traceable.
and.. i dun even wanna noe what hapens next.
gona paint my hse this wkend.
sat, sun plus mon.
long long wkend..
anyone wanna sign up to help wid da painting??
and the shifting of the brg2 in the hse larh.
wid so much junk. its gonna take ages.
im only interested in painting.
im like, dying to go out.
go sum place. have fun. spend and pamper myself.
but i dun really think its possible.
im tinking of waxing.
hahas. yea.. ouch? i dun tink it'll hurt.
and so wad if it does?
if its gonna leave me wid clean , hairless legs..
who cares?!! the price of beauty.
hmmm..
hahas. tads it fer today folks.
till den.

+ i miss u . i still do.

madagascar

2008-11-28T13:37:00.004+08:00

Okay, last night, my dear bestie called me jus to say,
''ey sam, go change ur blogskin larh. so ugly.''
hurhur.. so i told her to do it fer me instead.
and nw, being the blog idiot that i am, i cant find anythin!!
my blog archive is gone, so is my tagboard.
hmm.. still, credits go to zaza.
anyway, i watched the movie.. and..
hahaha. was gerek sia!!
it went,
'' i like to move it move it.''
'' he likes to move it move it.''
'' she likes to move it move it ''
'' we like to, MOVE IT!! ''
hilarious!
and now, im watchin CSI.
again.. well, there are alot of seasons.
what better way to buck up on ur science?
hurhur.
well, till then.

weird

2008-11-26T15:36:00.004+08:00

jus read zaza's blog and found out that she's having a 'cold war' with her fren.
and yea, out of curiousity i went to read her fren's blog.
gd thing i understood mly uh.
and its such an ... hmmm.. interesting story? hahas.
its not abt the issue on the cold war but i guess it had sum wat to do wit it
and it comes down to the thought..
how is it that we, people, human can have such..
unwiltering patience to another person not of our own blood
i mean, yeah, its natural to love and care
have millions of patience to ur own blood..
but to another different being?
and that even when we are giving that person all our life's worth of efforts, love, patience
even to swallow our own pride it still isnt enough for them.
strange world isnt it?
and they say that is the power of love.
hmm.. wadeva. im not even making sense to myself anymore.
anyway, in a few more hrs,
im gonna watch madagascar!!
okay, i noe, lame.. its just that i haven been to the movies for quite sum tym alryts!
call me silly. and silly is al i permit of u to call.
*winks
will blog again.

hi people!

2008-11-24T15:23:00.001+08:00

i know i know.. my laptop been running into connection problems.. probably cos i cant stop downloading CSI. hahahs. anyway, its officailly the holidays.. and.. lifes stil as boring. havent done anythin quite useful.. i guess thats wad holidays are fer.. to rot. anyway, got so pissed off at wrk las friday. hate myanmar ppl man! shit dem uh. they dont even deserve to be treated nice. im not racist or anythin. i dun care if ure a foreginer. it doesnt mean that u go to another country, and get so afraid that the local ppl will bully and take advantage of u that instead u go take advantage of the locals first. seriously, dey just dun deserve to be not bullied. they jus giving the locals to have a reason to bully dem uh. idiots. i got so pissed i jus left and went home. arghh... they disgust me.
and den there's sitex the end of the mth. i didnt sign up for it in the end. i jus dun like compeiting with others fer commission. its gonna get soo ugly. i mean, ppl.. they sorta turn into.. no, they sorta nto be their usual self because of money.

friggin msn

2008-11-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

whats gotten into MSN? i sign online it signs mi out. i sign online it signs me out again

speechless

2008-10-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

i dunno what to say. what had i done wrong tis time.
or shall i put it, what is wrong with u now.
what the fark is wrong with ur bloody brain sial.
ive been so nice. and u farkin step on my head.
jus u wait uh. i'l be more den ready to do that to u.
afterall, revenge is sweet. and im looking forward to it.
u keep blaming me fer what im not.
well, jus fer the record. ure no romeo.
i was blind. i was stupid.
i keep changin fer u. i try so hard to please u.
but time and time again u whine that im not doing it right.
and now i know.
fer sure.
fer real.
fer certain.
im a much better person than u.
ure not good enough fer me.

fark right out of my life.

2008-10-13T21:02:00.004+08:00

these peps arent lettin mi in on what they'r starin at. at sakura
our grad day

li, open up ur eyes.. i noe he smells good.. totally caught offguard man!
i jus lurvee takin pics with her!

graduation day

2008-10-10T18:59:00.003+08:00

hmm.. what can i say? its sorta sad..
i mean.. ok, ive bin in the sch fer like what? 6 years..
and i was telling myself, ''gosh! i dowana graduate!''
hahas.. its sorta impossible.
well, easch class had our own video..
and it was nerve-wreckin fer our class cos none of us had seen it except ili hu did it uh..
sad.. if only i can really use words to describe hw it felt..
arrghhh!!!!
post graduation truama...
well, enuf said.. here are sum pics of las nite's dinner..

rainbow after the rain?

2008-09-29T00:03:00.004+08:00

had been really long since i blogged huh
haven really got the mood and time to.
sorry peps.(thou i dun tink anyone is relly out dere readin this.)
been really worn out this week.
why? because of an stupid arguement..
im sick and tired of it..
haiish. didnt really sleep and all that.
and finally at long last..
its ended.
im goink to sleep peacfully and soundfully tonight!
started the day with the wrong foot.
the adults were talking,
'' she herself scared that she suddenly come up.
in the end she go home.''
okay. none of u would understand wad im saying.
heres the idea.
a man and a woman. obviously in a relationship.. duh..
and another women walks into it.
well say, she fell head over heels with him.
knowing that he has a gf didnt stop her.
she goes up to his place everyday,
calls him,
looks for him..
now, hows that?
and the man, being one with not much of a temper tells her to stop.
obviously she disregards it.
in the night, when the gf is not there,
she sleeps over..
(now now.. lets keep it simple. just SLEEPING. in SEPERATE beds!)
and today i hear them saying that she was afraid..
that the gf would turn up unexpectedly.. blablabla.
of cos when they were talking the actual 'third party' and the guy was present.
and i went
'' if you know its wrong, dont do it. if you do you scared, den dont do.
look for trouble righht.. stupid.''
my mom obviously tried stopping me.
she went ''blahblahblahblahblah..''
oh dear mommy.. u do know me huh? nth gd comes out once i dislike a person.
but her blah-ing attempt didnt quite stop me from keeping my mouth shut.
so the 'third-party' heard it and went all quiet.
HAH! in your face biyotcch..
and so my message is, DONT MESS WITH MY FAMILY. its only the beginnning.
i dun care how many years older u are.
i dun care if ure my whoever relative's friend.
i dun care if u think im direspectful.
bcos what ure doing id downright SHAMELESS.

2008-09-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

oularrlarr... im hungry!
anyway, ari pgi airport. hmm.. i tink its more better den pt skola.
at least i did my bio 5yrs series kay!!
hahas.. so tired seh..
and den i came hm.. and... i went online.. to look fer clothes.. and bags..
and im gonna be pok kai!! haiyo.
stress.. haiish.. now im waiting fer my mam2.
my mee rebus! wahahaahs
he almost missed hys pract .. AGAIN!
thank goodness fer ME!!
wahahahahahs..
hmm... and im gonna claim my REWARD!\
whahahahahahahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muahahahhhaahhaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wen am i getting my pay....
still got fone bill, internet bill.. arghhh!!
da.. my mam2 is here..
toodles~

2008-09-04T16:14:00.006+08:00

i woke up tis mornin and guess wad. hero(my dogg) is missing!! again.. ytd it was evonne.. tdy its hym.. hmm.. apparently dey haf bin visiting the nxt blk( whr my uncle stays).. going for bathes.. hahas. and he's stil nt back yet.. hahas.. and hey, did i post the pic of waidi eating donut??! he's sooooo000 kuit!! argghh.. comot sey!! well.. will love hym fer aa very long tym to cum.. anyway, went out wid zaza ytd. went to ang mo kio to gt thumbdrives. cheap! and nxt stop is to town! went to AX & she wanted to buy tis small keychain whr u cn fit two small fotos and its 79 bucks!! arghh.. my two days pay okay zal!! im happy. but aft tat i cried lyk a baby.. and dun ask y. sobs.. sakit ati .. aft tad went to ikea at alexandra.. woohoo.. gt two plates & a pan.. can cook alrdy!! but aft tt eveythin start again.. u tingal kn i cm gini.. ii hate u!! and i nv fast ytd.. i officailly got fed up & started scolding vulgaries. hmm.. talk abt glam ! & tdy i oso nv fast.. haiish.. & i wan dbl choc frm dount factory!! hmmm..

2008-09-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

ella.li.me & edd at baybeats

bing nan.zeelia.me & zheng rong

me and edd at baybeats COMEX 2oo8

finally!!

2008-09-01T13:17:00.002+08:00

woohoo!! finaly finished 4 days of work straight! COMEX has ended!! yeah! damn tired and frustrating ! stupid ppl.. everything wan free.

laptop cheap rdy stil wan sumore.. buy larh, 3ooo+ laptop..

everythin gif u free uh! stupid . arghhh.. no doubt is singaporean.

kiasu lyk shit! den tok to dem so much.. in the end say thank u..

go look ard ferst. wahh!! knn.. buay tahan .. voice dun haf rdy oso

die2 much say uh.. but fun larh.. get to mit al kind of ppl..

even china ppl oso noe hw to bargain one horh! den slack ard abit..

hahas.. ytd las day lerh.. camwhore uh!! the next tym we mit will be end of the year rdy loh.. hmm.. well.. another learning experience..

cats & dogs

2008-08-24T15:32:00.003+08:00

yea.. its raining... CATS & DOGS!!

ytd watch fireworks .. oso in the rain.. thou its jus drizling larh..

but still.. den we sat on plastic bags.. our ljs plastic bags..

and wait.. waiit... waiiittt... waiited....

until 9pm. the mc damn gd liar lorh...

but hey, did i mention the fireworks were GREAT??

serious.. lyk super duper.

aft tt is lyk, tons of ppl.. wn go slack aft the fireworks oso no mood.

so we jus head to starbucks at suntec.

and aft tt..... the bus!!

super freakin SLOW!!

i took almos 45 mins to get hm..

brrrr.... shud have jus taken the bloody train

so tired.. washed up. and headed to bed..

zzz.... slpt lyk a baby..

+u, i hate to admit it.. but i miss u +

i cnt believe it!

2008-08-13T19:07:00.002+08:00

seriously, how in da hell did i stay wid him fer so long?

i must be dreaming man!! shitt!

niway, bin tiring tis few days..

and hey! huiyin got me a book.. its so sweet of her..

though i did wanted to kill her tad she tel mi abt the borders book fair.

but its so sweet of her! argh..!! she actually tot of ME!!

woohoo..

2008-08-07T19:45:00.003+08:00

hmmm. had fun pt johor? rindu sey.. tkda org lyn..

haiya.. had fun in school today too.. althou i was so very tired.

i din really slp in class.. woohoo.. u have no idea wad an acomplishment it is to me. sch ended and the bunch of us went for lunch at tmart.. dodo ate her redbean condensed milk.. use two spoon but still shi lian so many tyms.. hahas. bloated and cold we dcided to slack ard. the rest played cards while i and dodo sat and tok.. made so much noise. actaully tot cn finally go hm early today. in the end.. haiish.. stil late.. well, its national day celebrations tomor.. cn go sch abit late. stil, have to go!!! ends at 11am. aft tad us rush hm. faster slp!! recharge before goink to work! i noe im gonna regret choosin to work OT tml wen i set foot into suntec.. wad to do. cnt livw without ka-ching2 $$. den mon no sch. but have to rush art. again. every wk lyk do same thing. borink man. haiish.. niway.. gonna shower soon. wanna slp!

* we promised the perfect moment. and so we shall wait til den.

singfeast

2008-08-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

went to fortcanning las nite. singfeast!! okay larh. we din buy the tix so we jus stand outsyd. but stil. its super high!! jason mraz.. gosh!! and den pcd .. makin the crowd go wilder.. and hey, ppl hu tink dey cant sing or wad.. heres the fact. they can!! at least the lead singer.. but they'r super hot!! the crowd's lyk, everywhr.. had fun. thou i got a lil farked up wantin to plunge my stomach right throu my mouth(eww..). but i stil had fun.. didnt gt ed's nuggets in the end but yea. i even had difficulty finishin my dbl cheese burger.. haish.. life..

it hurts. it jus does. i dont noe wad to say, or hw much i'll let out. i duno hw or wad to say anymore larh. say so much. in the end? but den again. i jus cant stop. tryin to convince u. tryin to make u see things at from my view. wanting u to understand mi jus as much u want mi to understan u. its hard. for both of us.. but its amazin hw u cud be so level headed. so calm. arghh!! its infuriatating!! hw i wish i cud bash ur head open and read ur mind like storybooks!!

2008-07-31T12:03:00.002+08:00

just watched a movie on the net. a homosexual movie.. and omg.. it must have bin awkward when they were acting.. althou its kinda weird.. its so sad... when they finally can be together, one of them dies!! arghhh.. and imagine if u found out Ur husband was gay.. completely no competition man.. haissh.. well, jus tot of bloggin abt the movie.. have to go to sch rdy soon. toodles!!

2008-07-25T23:34:00.004+08:00

dodo & me
lazing at the esplande
after e fireworks
joanne! u'r fair!!
ed & me

underpass
dodo
he cant stop posin
caught off-guard
candid

i wont be walkin alon den
bang! bang!
now edys cut off

2008-07-25T23:10:00.010+08:00

we'r jus lyk one family=)
look, edys gettin sizzled by li
nice..
everyone got cut off xcept mi

errr.. these two are acting weird.
that white thing dere? its edys hand
hesterical

smile peps

look of satisfaction
bottoms up dudes!!

pucker up!

solarize

at newyork2jus look at eddy! wakakaka

my leggg.....

2008-07-24T22:47:00.006+08:00

simply chocolatey & awfully sinful
i noe i haven bin updating people! don haf to kip reminding me everyday. bin a tring week.. and guess wad? its gonna continue !! sure am i excited!! (=.=) did standin broad jump ytd fer P.E. and now, i cant walk properly without twitchin in pain. yea.. the muscles pulled alryt. dunno hw it happen niway. my frens are laughin at me coz i walk slow, climb stairs one by one.. argh!! never had the urge to go running so much b4. and, if my standin broad jmp pass nvm.. stil FAIL!! damn it.. borink siak. tis weekend, no rest!! gonna complete my art.. tues gotta hand in!! we'll all be pandas nxt mon. ahh.. its drivin me insane jus tinkin of it. niwae, im goin to bed! gotta recharge!! toodles peps

slackin,beer & cigs

2008-07-21T16:07:00.003+08:00

tad, is the picture of us cam-whoring..

tuesday night

2008-07-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

sitting on the couch, eating a huge chuck of hazelhut choc and watchin tv shows one after another.. hmm.. thats wad i call nice.. its Samantha who right now.. yups.. Samantha watching Samantha who. weird. oh, did i mention my names' Samantha? hmm... anyway.. had a really tiring day .. 3 periods of maths!! ferst thing in the morn.. i almost fell off my seat.. nahs.. not really.. i got sent out within 1o mins the lesson started. cool huh? hahas.. but aft i did get in.. and almost fell aslp.. hmm..and den wen it was tym for slackin, mr lourds came in , and took that 2 periods too!! arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 5 periods of maths.. darn.. niway, im at hm.. slackin.. and my baby is off to his pract. i really do hope he passes.. den mayb at least he wun be so cranky.. toodles fer nw.

blogging?

2008-07-08T09:22:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this is probably the first you'd hear of me blooging, but no.. ive had had a blog.. and its still there. guess i din cancel the acc. i dun noe y i didnt anyway.. its from wad? 3 yrs back? gosh, im growin old. hmm.. u could check it out it you wan.. its sammistarslavender.blogspot.com but its gonna bore . guess this is it for now. i'll update when i have the time.. if i have the tme. and if i remember to.. hmm.. wonder whats on tv tonight. toodles!!